Sometimes I miss you,

Then I remember why I left.

Don't you hate it when you finally talk to someone and realize that they aren't the person you wish they were?

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I was just thinking about this, and why my blogs don’t consist of me fawning over this ‘gawjus boy’ anymore. Ever realize why none of my blogs consist of this “bioboy” that I used to drool over and day dream about anymore? (Haha, I’m lame. Get over it.) He used to be on a pedestal and now he’s equal to the dirt I walk on.. Except with a pretty face. HAHA, just kidding, that’s mean. But honestly, his personality did take him off of that pedestal. Sigh, QA. You are too good. You got me right on the dot. Sigh, life.. Oh how you love to disappoint me.

I hate how dispensable I am to people. I hate how people feel they can just forget about me, replace me, erase me without even a second thought. It’s like I don’t matter to anyone. And hey, I mean, I don’t blame you. I’m no one special. I just thought you were different. I had more faith in you. And you took that, ripped it up, shoved it in my face and walked away without ever looking back.

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Hmmm..

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Nicholas Sparks is a genius. But okay, where’s my guy?!

I'm not one to talk about my feelings, but I got a million and one things to say to you because boy, you've got my heart in headlock.

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Haha, this is a cute way to put it. QA, you have a way with words. ;] I MISS YOU, BTW. <3

Dear life,

I would appreciate it if you would stop kicking my ass.

First off, I no longer have a job. Yes, that means no more income. But I have this gigantic family that wants a bajillion things for Christmas so I’m working on it, because I want them to be happy.. Which they deserve to be.

Secondly, I still need spending money so this balancing thing is quite difficult. And well, it’s winter break. I want to go out and have fun. And that’s selfish, but I’m a college student and everyone’s coming back for Christmas break.. It only makes sense!

Now I’m in a dilemma: either I keep my colored hair and piercings and not have a job, or well, I do the opposite. Or try to at least, because honestly in this economy, what kind of stable job could I actually find? It’d probably pay the same as my EDD if I do happen to find one. Ugh, decisions decisions.

Thirdly, was it really necessary that I get a fucking speeding ticket today? REALLY?! I can no longer say my record is clean and my insurance goes up if I don’t do traffic school.. And now I have this $320 fine on top of that. What. The. Fuck.  I’m debating if I should try to go to school to get it dismissed. But if I do, and lose, I can’t reduce the fine with traffic school. Yet another dilemma.

On top of that, all this drama.. With friends and boys and whatnots — so not necessary. I’ll learn without history repeating myself, without being betrayed by another good friend, and without another heartbreak.. I promise. So can you rid of the drama and stop hurting me?

Oh and I miss my best friend.. Or having one at least. But he doesn’t miss me and I understand that. See, I learned on my own that I shouldn’t slap labels on people so I could learn the rest on my own as well.

Kick me while I’m down why don’t you?

Lastly, it’s almost my birthday in less than two weeks. It’s my birthday month! Oh c’mon, that counts for something. I don’t know what you’re expecting of me.

I know you don’t hate me, because when you’re good, you’re good. But when you’re bad, do you really have to be this bad?

Sorry for complaining so much, but give me a break, please. Honestly, it’s the least you could do. Thanks.

I’d really appreciate it if you put all of these into consideration.

Sincerely,

Tiffany.

HAHAHA. Omg, the cutessst!

Updates?

Wooo, so I’m finally done with classes! Except finals Monday through Wednesday, boo! Finals shouldn’t be too bad though. Probably just gonna wing it all because the only class I’m worried about is English1b. THUG LIFE, BABY. No more cute boys in my class though.. No more Christopher #1, Jacob, & Christopher #2! And other random boys, haha. At least I befriended two of them. :) Mrah.

Next semester I’m taking Tuesday & Thursday classes with a lab Friday morning. -__- Math 106, Chad 67, Chem30a & AAS33b back to back.. But I don’t know in what order. Oh well.

After winter break, I gotta stop eating out so much man. With Christmas just around the corner, I’m going broke. Almost done though. 7/10, not bad. :) Just need to get gifts for my two older sisters & older brother. My family’s expensive. -__- Nonetheless, <3.

I love this time of year though. :) I wish it snowed here.. Came close, it’s pretty cold.. But not quite. Just need to find me a cuddle buddy, ha ha ha, kidding. Presents + family + friends = <3. Like how I put presents first? Yeah, get over it. I want to go to Christmas in the park & ice skating though! Let’s go, yeah? :D

Gabe Bondoc concert on the 18th! Plus a day in the city. I’m excited!! My baby. <3 I’m sad that he has a girlfriend though.. It’s okay, at least she’s hot. Just like AJ Rafael. I can feel my heart breaking again..

I want to have a Glee marathon tonight or tomorrow.. To prepare for the season finale! :D Ahhh, I love Glee. & I don’t care what you say, Will Schuester is a total babe. ;)

I’m not sure if it’s me, but I’m so much more irritable lately.. Or maybe people are just more irritating. The people that used to be in my lives ever so constantly have become so damn annoying that I’ve just been distancing myself. Wrong time to be doing so. Oh well.

Just gotta keep smiling and my head up high, yessir. Life always gets better. I’m crossing my fingers.

I feel like I’m getting old. My birthday’s less than two weeks away then I won’t be a teen anymore. :[ I have nothing to ask for. I wanna go eat fondue with LTT & with friends, I’m not sure.. Hmm, should I go to iFly or the shooting range?

Random, much?

The Velveteen Rabbit was about how little kids get one toy that they love more than all the others, and even when its fur has been rubbed off, and it’s gone saggy with bits missing, the little child still thinks it’s the most beautiful toy in the world, and can’t bear to be parted from it. That’s how it works, when people really love each other.

Helen Fielding, Bridget Jones Diary (via thoughtsdetained)

& I’m gonna search my whole life for precisely this.

I deleted your AIM a long time ago.

deeannjenele:

But sometimes, once in a blue moon, I add it onto my list again just to see if you’re on. And when you are on, I get this horrible feeling in my stomach and delete it really quick. With it not there, I feel like you’re not real anymore. I like it better that way.

Mmmm.. I always try to do this, but it never works out the way I want it to.

Too many guys think I’m a concept, or I complete them, or I’m gonna make them alive. But I’m just a fucked-up girl who’s lookin’ for my own peace of mind; don’t assign me yours.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (via kari-shma)

And I know that we don't talk much anymore, & sometimes we even walk right by each other in the hall, without saying a word, or looking at each other, but then there's those times when our eyes meet & I realize, deep down, I miss you.

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Mmm.. Sounds familiar.

Ever felt as if you're not whole anymore? Like, you've lost your smile, your laugh, your own self. And no matter how hard you try, you just can't get back to the way things were before. You can't get yourself back to the person you once were.

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This is me in a nutshell nowadays..

Ironic.

I’m fighting to get you out of my head, but I’m holding onto every word that you ever said.

aphan:

fuckyeahstreetwear:

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:D

OH HAI ZAC EFRON. You’re the cutest!! <3